For the last four years my intention for spiritual health was exactly that...no more seeking, no more doubt. But there are the looming questions, how would I be, what would my life look like, how would I be in relationship to others, and most of all... could that be the end of all struggling? Isn't life a big struggle most of the time? Is that the resolve of the human experience, my human experience? What I can say is when I am experiencing love in the true sense, the struggle is uplifted, it doesn't enter into my consciousness at that very moment. But I struggle for that moment every bloody second, I seek those moments, I doubt those moments.
Today, my intention is to transform my perception. The perception that there has to be struggle. It's like looking for the car keys when they're already in your pocket as you throw up the covers of the bed, look in the trash, and try to remember what you wore the day before. You stand there silently in the middle of the house thinking and then...you hear a very familiar jingling sound at your side...oh yes...you were in possession of them the whole time. That which I seek, I already have.
Okay, now...what to do about doubt?
